Hey everypawdy, Bud here. Thanks for helping me celebrate my 6th anniversary of being adopted into my FURever home yesterday! We had a pretty darn good day of it yeah? I was overwhelmed by how many folks stopped by to share the love, since that’s what it’s all about. It has been a busy week, so it was good to chillax and focus on the NOW with good friends doing what I love. When things get goofy, always come back to NOW, remember that…
So Monday I went to the dogtor which I never really care for, but he’s really nice and I get ice cream so it’s pretty much a wash. See, my nose started bleeding again on Friday. Yup, right there in the pool no less! Then again on Saturday and Sunday and Monday… So off we went to see if my blood pressure was all whacky again. But no. Now it is still in the high range, even with all the meds I’m on, which in and of itself suggests there’s somethin’ pressin’ on my big ol’ heart that we might not want to think about (or at least I don’t care to think about) and so I don’t. Thing is, the blood pressure isn’t high enough to cause these bleeds. So Ol’ Monte Hall says the winner is behind door #1 or door #2. It is either Nasal cancer or end-stage Fungal Infection since I’m only bleeding out of one side of my nose. We can run big icky tests to prove which one, but my body can’t really withstand the treatment for either since I have so much other cancer in it right now is the short and sweet and I would have a really lousy quality of life. Not very Buddy-worthy at all. Dogtor says if I keep bleeding (and I am) I will soon become anemic ( a WHAT?) and drift… I actually love to drift
Or, I might have a big bleed. I do lots of stuff in a big way so maybe that will be it? Anyway, Mom started talking with me a lot and watching me. She noticed a few things because you know, we dogs know when things are winding down. We don’t really get scared because it’s all natural and all part of the circle of life. I now can feel my body changing and preparing to transition. It feels, well, different. I’m not sure why, so I like to be by my Mom all the time just to be sure everything is ok. I still look to her for support a lot. At night when I sleep, I like to sleep on the cool tile, but I now want to feel a little more secure so I have been climbing into the shower to feel like I’m in a little secure place. I remember my fur-Mom climbing into the bathtub every night towards the end, now I know why. I sleep most of the day, I’m pretty tired, but I do enjoy going out for a roll on the grass and a head massage. I still love my food and I love my swim every day. Mom and I have agreed that I’ll let her know that I don’t wanna play any more when I stop wanting those things. She and Dad are real calm and hold my head and wipe my nose when it bleeds and talk real quiet so I don’t get skeered. Then we have treats and go back to life.
So NOW is a good time to review the big lesson. All we have is love. We live in the NOW because yesterday is gone and tomorrow isn’t here yet and we can’t possibly know what it will bring, it is the NOT NOW. And the love we have NOW? It binds us FOREVER! So join me for a float in the pool, a barkarita or two and enjoy the ride. The water is perfect from where I float ::